Titan, Estrella, Daylight (Brave St Saturn)

Behind what I know and see
A darkness that will spy on me
Eclipsed in this trajectory
A cancer that is eating me

Destroy
Divide
The dark
Inside

In between the molecules is cold
No light for shaking fingers to ever have their hold
And I'm afraid I'll never see the light
The blind are following in sightless plight

Titans looming over me
Giants that are crushing me

As I drive and listen and work and write and remember.  I flip between songs on my ipod.  I have two go to bands, both of which have the same lead.  The first is Five Iron Frenzy, I was really sad when they played their last show, was really glad I was able to hear them one year at Alive.  I try and listen to them but there are times that I get a little sad, no thats not right, it's more of a nostalgic happy/meloncholy/sorta semi depressing thing.  Anyway I still love Five Iron, and if i'm in good spirits I will listen to some of their stuff and just really enjoy it.  I also love a band called Brave Saint Saturn.  Same lead singer and the above lyrics are from the song Titan.  As I was listening to them this morning heading in to work and as I listen to them while I write this and update case notes, I am struck by how much their music speaks to and informs my life .  These songs that I have in my Title are full of things that just fit with who I am, and who I have been,  who I would love to be again.   Titan is what I started the post with, the thing is it can't end there, I can't believe that it does end there, moving into Estrella we hear about a faith that I too wonder if it's possible to have, perhaps the most important song to my life, the song I come back to over and over again,  the song that brings tears to my eyes when I listen to it, the one that I just play over and over and over is called Daylight.

Jesus Christ, Light of the World
You never did forget me
and when i bled in darkness, You held
me
still held me
when desparate nights i cursed You
You loved me, still loved me
Jesus Christ, You dry the tears
You break my heart of stone
Your words are life
cut marrow through
the darkness, to the bone
a heart of flesh You gave me
only You can save me


The question is always the same though,  am I ready for that, can I handle that, do I want to be saved?